I currently have 4 cubic yards of screened, black, earthy topsoil on my driveway. I don’t really have a green thumb, but you can’t deny the loveliness of fresh and good-smelling dirt.
I wish I was crafting more, but things are so upside-down here at home, I just don’t have the motivation to make another huge mess. Like in school, I couldn’t study unless the house was clean. I can’t even sit down to watch tv and knit, I just can’t relax. My husband decided to buy a sledgehammer and crack up part of our walkway. There was just cement on the left side of our stairs, which was off-balanced and pretty yicky, but I suggested he save time and money by just buying an antique horse trough and I’d plant flowers in it. Now he’s planning to tear out the box hedge on the other side, and doing this huge landscaping thing to get our house ready to sell.
What we need to be doing is getting a storage unit and start loading all the stuff upstairs into it. I called a realtor yesterday, and she’s coming over Sunday to tell us what we really need to get done to sell the joint.
This is our first house, and while I am excited to move to LoHud, I really got settled here. Especially since this year was so difficult for me emotionally. I am super lucky, my husband got a really great job where I don’t have to worry about working. I know this. I just am not well enough to be dealing with an upheaval like this. Change like this is not good for me right now. But it absolutely has to and is happening. I know I sound completely normal when I write here, but in real life I have this tendency to panic at change, it really distresses me.
AND IT DOESN’T HELP THAT MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 9 DAYS AND I WILL BE 29!!!!! AIIIIIIII! Where did all the time go? How am I married, a homeowner, have a college degree, own five animals, own a car… and still fee like a huge mess of a person? Some days I don’t even know if I am a person. Good Lord, I need some comfort.
well, since you are only 29 i have no sympathy! :-))). don’t worry, it only gets worse. try to create something, it will make you feel better. am i helping?